What a week
It is well, that has been my anthem these past couple of days. Through it all, through it all My eyes are on You It is well with me Far be it from me to not believe Even when my eyes can't see And this mountain that's in front of me Will be thrown into the midst of the sea Through it all, through it all My eyes are on You Through it all, through it all It is well So let go my soul and trust in Him The waves and wind still know His name I had no idea you would have enough tears to cry for 15 hours! But I can testify that I had enough! When I threw up my arms and surrendered the other night, I then bawled for 15 hours, the poor girls were like mom, what is going on. I said I just can't stop crying. It is just going to be a bad day. Cary, Thank you for answering your phone on Wednesday morning, listening to me cry and giving me support. I was at a loss, when they said Demi broke her arm. Pushed to the very edge of the cliff, not sure how I was going to not fall off. I had lots of encouraging posts, texts, and support. Now was not the time to give in to what was being put in front of me. As the song says, "so let go my soul and trust in him" I hit rewind a thousand times listening to that one lyric, "SO LET GO AND TRUST IN HIM". Honestly at first I wanted to just be pissed, scream this is not fair, and this little voice that speaks to my girls says "life is not fair, it is what you do with what you think is not fair." Crap, why did I use that line on my girls, now I had to listen to my own self. I had to remember what I even told Demi while she sobbed in my chest, lessons to be learned, there are lessons to be learned. See it sometimes is the hardest thing to do when your babies are involved. I had a great talk with the Lord about that Tuesday night. Isaiah 30:20-21 Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you , saying, "This is the way; walk in it." Z got me out of the house Wednesday afternoon, we had a nice time shopping, a late lunch and coffee on the way home. The tears finally stopped for the most part. Until I got home! Doug says Jack we got a card in the mail. He hands me this small envelope, on the front of it it says "The Corta Family" Inside the card says "MERRY CHRISTMAS WITH LOVE!" no one signed it! But there was a receipt of a bank transaction into Doug's Benefit account for $1000.00! Here came the tears again. With a new deductible coming in a couple of weeks, and MRI's scheduled, this just touched my heart that someone loves us this much! CHRISTMAS BLESSING! That is what I call it. As we are looking at the card, our dog barks at the door, I go to look and there is a big box that had been delivered. As we open it up, it is full of non dairy SO delicious products. These are our favorites! Once again no name on who sent this to us. More tears, more tears, more tears! Feeling the love! If you anonymous souls are reading my post, my heart is so grateful. These blessings could not have come at a more perfect time. Blessed we are truly blessed. Started to feel the fight come back in me by the end of the day Wednesday. Thursday, I just want to share with you Jesus Calling devotional for that day. When you are plagued by a persistent problem, one that goes on and on, view it as a rich opportunity. An ongoing problem is like a tutor who is always by your side. The learning possibilities are limited only by your willingness to be teachable. In faith, thank Me for your problem. Ask Me to open your eyes and your heart to all that I am accomplishing through this difficulty. Once you have become grateful for a problem, it loses its power to drag you down. On the contrary, your thankful attitude will lift you up into heavenly places with Me. From this perspective, your difficulty can be seen as a slight, temporary distress that is producing for you a transcendent Glory never to cease! Man this one hit me pretty good. I have always believed things happen for a reason, we are tested, we are challenged, we have a lesson to learn, but never have I thought a problem would be a rich opportunity. But I am realizing through all of this I am going through right now in this season of my life, I know. . . . I KNOW I will be a stronger woman of faith, I KNOW I will have touched someone's life for the good, I KNOW all will be okay and I KNOW I will give all the glory to God! On Friday Demi had her appointment with the orthopedic doctor, NO SURGERY! Amen Jesus, thank you for this small victory. 4 weeks in a cast and possibly start working back into playing ball. She has a buckle fracture of her radius just below her wrist. I loved Dr. Judd, he was so good with Demi. Thank you Deb for speaking up and letting me know you worked for him. It brought this mom comfort knowing you would be there. Demi never seems to amaze me, but as she went to practice she grabs a ball, the girls start doing their drills and Demi jumps in doing the drill with her left hand! In 4 weeks she will be so much stronger with her left hand. She is a trooper, I could not be more proud of that girl. I had one of the toughest weeks this past week, but also was blessed beyond measure this week. I was very weak, and very vulnerable throughout most of it, and it was okay. But I soon decided I had to not sit on the edge of that cliff anymore, I needed to step back and keep fighting. I think we get so wrapped up in always being so strong, so tough, so faithful, that we forget we can actually fall, and throw a fit if you want to call it that. But you then have to make the choice to sit on the edge of that cliff or step back and stand up and fight the good fight. I know I will have more weak days ahead, more not so great moments, but I also know I have BIG VICTORIES to write about in my near future. Thank you for all the extra prayers this week, they were felt for sure. Thank you to the sweet basketball player that gave me the biggest hug, it was exactly what I needed right then! Challenges will surface in your path on this journey called life, but it is what you choose to do with those challenges. It is asking for help through those challenges, or sitting and crying for 15 hours. But remembering to have faith, to trust, to believe and be a witness to all great things. My prayer this Christmas season is that all of my TEAM CORTA warriors, supporters,and those that just read this for fun, are blessed with the joy of the season, the love of your family, and that Christ would shine a bit brighter in your lives! In case I don't post again before Christmas. . . . MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL! We love you! Love and Blessings to all!