Process / Day before
Thank you to my basketball woman that played this morning. That was exactly what this girl needed. The gym is where my soul is at peace. ( I've got to get me a coaching job!) It also felt good to get some exercise!
I'm learning through this process, what life really means to me. We go through our day, hustle and bustle through it and forget what we are blessed with. It has put my life into perspective. It has actually saddened me that it has taken something like this to make me step back and look at how I am living my life, how I have been living my life and how I will be living my life.
I LOVE the outpouring of support, prayers, thoughts and kind words we have been receiving. You know you have touched peoples' lives, but you don't realize how many you have reached until this.
Why do we wait, why does it take a crisis, to send us into thankfulness. Is it human nature, are we scared to share our feelings, are we afraid it won't be accepted, do we think people just know. Whatever it may be it is hard for me to understand. But I know from being in this process I will be a bit more thankful, a bit more grateful, a bit more kind, a bit more understanding, I will show more compassion to others. I am not waiting for those people to be in a crisis. So I challenge each person that is reading this find 1 person or 5 to just take a moment to thank them, tell them you love them, tell them how they have impacted your life, or that you just really care about them!
The Lord has put some amazing people in my life, it brings me comfort knowing you all are supporting us, loving us, care for us and praying for us! The words THANK YOU do not even come close to the emotions I feel.
Tomorrow is a BIG day! I will be back journaling later tonight!
Love and Blessings to all!
It has been a roller coaster of a ride today. Prayers have been felt when my knees began to crumble out from underneath me today.
My heart has been sad today, scared, scared, scared, SCARED! I think that is natural, at least I hope it is.
How am I doing, my response is as best as I can be.
Doug went to have blood work done today, my mom took him (God bless that woman!) so I could go play ball! When the nurse came to take him to get his blood drawn Doug said to her, "don't be shocked if its green with a hint of purple! See I bleed green with a hint of purple, but might be more purple in time!" When the nurse brought him out she told mom, yep it was green with a hint of purple!
I went and spoke to the softball team this afternoon, it went really well. Those girls are a special bunch of young ladies. As I drove out to the High School, I usually drive in silence but I was drawn to turn the radio on. That is when I could not believe what I heard, this is the song that was playing:
In my heart and my soul Lord I give you control consume me from the inside out Lord let justice and praise Become my embrace To love you from the inside out
Everlasting your light will shine when all else fades Never ending Your glory gives beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart Is to bring you praise From the inside out Lord my soul cries out
I felt a presence like no other, for I have him right here next to me. Then what happened next was crazy. I talked to the team, ran a couple of errands and went and got Doug to take out to practice to see his girls. We spent about an hour out at the field. On our way home once again we were in silence and I was drawn to the radio. Turned it up and here is what was playing:
Oh, God How I need you Lord I need Oh I need you And when I cannot stand I'll fall on you Jesus, you're my hope and stay
Doug sat there staring out the window, I said do you hear this song? He softly said Yes!
Just when you need a little sign, it comes right at you!
We had some great friends come over this evening and give Doug a blessing. Wow what a powerful thing. It is all about faith!
Prayers tomorrow not only for Doug, myself and the girls, but please for the doctors and nurses that will be with Doug tomorrow and the days to come. For a report we all want to hear. For a smooth recovery.
Love and Blessings to all!