Realness = This Sucks!
THIS SUCKS! That is the real ness of this journey right now.
I have been humbled, I have been overwhelmed, I have been filled with love, I have been shedding tears.
Humbled by the overflowing love of people my sweet husband has touched. Humbled knowing as he walked his path on this journey, he reached many. Teaching lessons, planting seeds, and always being the champion he has always been. Humbled tremendously by knowing how many YOUNG lives he has reached and has inspired, motivated, and believed in!
Overwhelmed with the whole journey!
Filled with love as my house is constantly full of family and friends! Loved with meals, groceries, cookies, and food to put in my freezer. Filled with love, that for the last two nights my living room floor has been covered with those that love Doug! A giant slumber party, with Doug sleeping in his chair! Filled with love knowing as difficult as this is right now The Lord has a much bigger plan than the plan Doug and I have. We were to grow old together, travel watching our three girls play out their collegiate careers, spoil our grand babies, and sit back and watch what amazing things our girls accomplish.
I have shed tears! I have shed numerous tears! Tears of complete sadness for my girls, watching what is happening to their daddy! Tears for myself, because my best friend is in this situation! I have shed tears as I pray, for whatever it is The Lord needs. Tears knowing he just might be needed in heaven more than I need him here.
My heart hurts, I have had this amazing man in my life since I was 15 years old. Thinking of life without his physical body next to me makes me sick to my stomach, and my heart breaks.
As we keep up this fight, until the last breath, I am also realistic on the severity of this vicious tumor. We continue to pray for a miraculous victory, that we can rejoice in. Trusting in our Heavenly Father. Although we think we know what's best, we need to trust! So I continue to stand firm in my faith, believing where our journey goes is exactly where we are to be!
I am so honored to have this gracious man by side, the love of my life that has taught me so much about life. Showing me how to touch lives and how to be true to who you are. Never allowing others to influence you into something you are not. He has shown me what hard work looks like, and how it pays off. He has taught his three girls to never expect anything to be just given to you, he has taught them through their work ethic, passion and commitment is the only way to achieve your goals in life.
I could write forever, but I will stop for now.
Spouses love your spouses, love them every day! Even those days they piss you off, find the love you share and LOVE THEM.
Young people, love your daddy! Don't take for granted the love they have for you. Those moments when you feel he doesn't understand you, doesn't seem to care what you want, doesn't feel as if he loves you, LOVE HIM! For it is those moments his heart is so full of love for you! Take the time to show your appreciation for every little thing he does. In a blink of an eye he could be gone!
TEAM CORTA continue to pray for Douglas! We are so loved!
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares The Lord " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Love and Blessings to all